wHat I wanna dO

Ada hal yang aku sangat ingin lakukan. Setidaknya, satu saat nanti, aku sangat berharap aku bisa melakukannya. Cita-cita, orang bilang.

Well, it's a very, very long way to go. I'll need years. Many years. Hm....

FIGHT!

CalCulator

Sejak SMA, teman-teman yang melihat kalkulatorku berkomentar macam-macam.

"May, kalkulator apa tuh? Bisa nyala ijo."
"Kalkulatormu kayak punya pakdhe-ku."
"Unik, unik."
"Wah, enak ya, baterenya gampang dicari."

Heh, kalkulator CASIO fx-140 ini sudah banyak membantuku sampai sekarang, termasuk untuk mengerjakan tugas dan ujian dengan bilangan-bilangan kompleks yang bikin kepalaku puyeng. Aku tak punya kalkulator lain (mengabaikan fitur kalkulator dalam HP Nokia 3310 yang hanya bisa untuk operasi tambah kurang kali bagi). Memang, tidak bisa dipakai untuk menyimpan rumus. Tapi, aku sangat menyukainya. Bagaimana tidak? Umurnya sudah sangat tua untuk ukuran kalkulator, namun tombol-tombolnya masih berfungsi dengan baik.

Yah... sepertinya sudah saatnya dia pensiun. Aku harus berterima kasih karena dia telah mengantarku menjadi sarjana. Well well, farewell time, my dear calculator... hiks hiks....

... aGaiN?

Lately, it feels like couple months ago. Hiah... a little strange. I should used to it. But well, I have to confess it, I hate having it in my mind.

I started this semester in a very bad mood. I just had three more classes to take. Slowly, I realized, this feeling came to me. Well, how couldn't I? I couldn't meet them as often as before. Everyone was busy for their final project. At the same time, my homemate to whom I tell almost everything, 'left' me for her boyfriend. Hiah... I just felt very lonely back then.

We're going to graduate, have a job in different places, or marry. Again, this feeling comes into my head. Some lighter kind of frightened. Well, I just can't help it. I've already considered them as my own family.

Hmm... I'll miss you, guys....